“But He knows where I’m going. And when He tests me, I will come out as pure gold.” ~Job 23:10
Whenever I would hear the saying, “be thankful for your trials,” I always thought this is what it meant: “Well, a lot of people have a worse life than you do, so you should be thankful it isn’t that bad.” I had this idea that in order to make my suffering turn into joy, I had to focus on other people’s problems. And yet, for some reason, this “it could be worse” attitude didn’t bring me joy.
It wasn’t until I went through a long series of trials that I discovered what it was I was supposed to be thankful for. I was driving home from work one afternoon and I was listening to the song He Knows by Dan Bremnes on the radio:
He knows right where you are
He shows you in your weakest hour
He’s making something new with your broken heart
I began to realize that through all of the pain and all of the trials, God was drawing me closer to Him. He stripped me of the things that I found security in so that my only security could be found in Him alone. As I was listening to that song in my car, I began thanking God for my trials, because through them, I was able to develop an intimacy with Him that I never thought was possible. I knew that through the struggles, I was developing character and perseverance, like Romans 5:3-4 says, “Not only that, but we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope.” I actually began to ask God to bring more trials into my life so that I could draw even closer to Him. I sat there thinking, “If people knew that I was asking God to give me more trials, they would probably think I’m crazy.”
The Devil comes to kill, steal, and destroy, but God can turn that around and turn it into something beautiful. I was broken down until I was left with nothing, and that’s when God pieced me back together into the woman he destined me to be. In my deepest wound, I saw His glory, and it astounded me.
“I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in Me, and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from Me, you can do nothing.” ~John 15:5
Have you ever been so overwhelmed that you felt like you couldn’t make it another day? Like the storms in life just wouldn’t let up and you were getting hit by one wave after another? I am currently in that situation right now. There was one day this past April that I cried out to God, “I need you.” You see, He had been teaching me that whether I’m going to a trial or a victory, I am so dependent on Him. That’s something that we often forget, we are always completely dependent on God and yet we always try to do it in our own strength. Sometimes God needs to bring us through really tough storms in order for us to realize that. “I cannot make it another day,” I told Him. I felt like I was holding onto him the with little bit of strength I had left, and I was slipping. I literally didn’t know how I would be able to get up the next day and do it all over again. “I need you God, save me.”
You may be going through a season of constant trials, of one unfortunate event after another, or you may be going through a great season in life, but either way, we need to realize that we are completely and utterly dependent on God. He wants to save you, you just have to let him.